The Tai Chi class this morning was a total nightmare. There are four sections in the frame we do and I am pleased with myself about being quite confident about the first two (the easiest) and I'm keen to improve on the other two. The instructor has been to China to train and he has come back wanting us to learn the form in the exact way it is practised in the Chen village in China. Lots of details have changed. This might sound trivial but I have spent almost 7 years trying to get the details right - hand positions really matter. And now I am supposed to do something different. I have been changed from being confident to feeling like a beginner again in one hour. And he is teaching us this at a fast rate. I can't adjust the way I do something I have been doing almost every day for so long. And do I want to? If the hand positions mattered that much, there wouldn't be different ways of doing it.
I don't want to go to the class again but TSH wants me to try the new moves and stick with it.
This is the first physical activity I have ever taken part in and got to a reasonable standard in. And now I feel like I did in the gym at school when I was the worst performer at everything. I feel ill!!